Rethinking the issue....

After thinking about it, I don't think I could ever really go out with anyone but Jeff. I realized that being alone so much doesn't make me lonely in general, it makes me lonely for him... So, I'm back into one of "those" relationships... Sort of reminds me of Hawk...
Speaking of Hawk, did I tell you about when he called me a couple of weeks ago and I told him I was seeing someone else?? He was upset. He told me to go online and find him a replacement for me. I told him that might be hard, and he said no, it would be downright impossible, because I was the most "natural" submissive that he had seen in 25 years of the lifestyle. He told me to invite him to my wedding. (I didn't tell him that Jeff is married)He told me that Jeff was a very lucky man. His wife and I are friends, and she has always told him that he needed to treat me better because I was the best sub he'd had in his life... I'm sure as soon as she told him she said "I told you so!"...LOL
At least Jeff calls me everyday, and has met my family, and cares about my kids... Today or tomorrow he is going to be here to take Isaiah and I to lunch, he's done that several times... My sister likes him, which is a miracle, but I haven't introduced him to my mom yet... I'm sure he really loves me...

As far as Jesse, he is incredibly hot, and persistent, but I just want Jeff... Even if it means being alone most of the time, I guess...